I wish I could say it was just because he was nervous or something but I had talked to him a few times before and that was my first impression. I was just hoping he'd change it.
So starts off with him going to open my door, which is a nice gesture that I appreciate.
But it was locked so he had to walk over to his side to open it. Once there he said I'm not coming back over to open the door. I figure you can get it yourself.
(I really don't mind opening my door, I just didn't like his attitude when saying it)
Then we are sitting at guitars unplugged and he says I'm glad you weren't already busy tonight, but if you were I would've just asked another girl.
(Uhh.. yah I'm glad to, I also hope I wasn't the fourth girl on your list of options either.)
Throughout the night I don't know if he was trying to impress me with how hot and wanted he thinks he is. He told me about all these girls that wanted to date him and just wanted his body but he was like whoa we've only gone on one date I don't want you to be all over me.
(But guess who was trying to be all over me...)
Then when he's dropping me off he tell me that I'm really pretty....and if I wasn't he would've have asked me out.
Basically I felt like an object the whole night.
Another sense I get from him is that he plans on dominating the relationship.
I feel sorry for the poor woman he controls for eternity.
Thank goodness it won't be me.
Sorry for this post has zero value. And maybe you don't think it sounds that bad but you weren't on the date. My description might not do it justice.
One little girl lifting heavy weights over her head,
did it wrong now her back is dead.
She went to the chiropractor and the chiropractor said,
"You're sacrum, which is a triangular bone in the lower part of your back has shifted down and to the left side of your back. You need to do more stretches and come and see me again on Friday so you can spend 25 dollars for me to pop your back."
Okay so he didn't say ALL of that, but it's implied.
But the first part is really true.
For those of you who don't know what the sacrum is or looks like (i didn't) here is an image.
And here is a brief description of the sacrum thanks to wikepedia. "In vertebrateanatomy the sacrum (plural: sacrums or sacra) is a large, triangular bone at the base of the spine and at the upper and back part of the pelvic cavity, where it is inserted like a wedge between the two hip bones. Its upper part connects with the last lumbar vertebra, and bottom part with the coccyx (tailbone). It consists of usually five initially unfused vertebrae which begin to fuse between ages 16–18 and are usually completely fused into a single bone by age 26."
I have a feeling my bones will never fuse together and that I'm going to need a walker by the time I'm 30.
Neither make walking or carrying a 10 pound backpack any fun.
This story my seem irrelevant but I promise it isn't. It's background!
Probably almost 2 years ago I dropped a casserole dish from about 6 ft high on my foot.
Sure it hurt but I went to bed and in the morning had forgotten it had even happened
Half way thru work the next day, my foot really starts to hurt and I'm trying to remember if I tripped at some point and kind of rolled my ankle cause I couldn't remember why it hurt.
Then I remembered the casserole dish
By the end of the night I was using crutches because I couldn't put any pressure on my foot it hurt so bad. But the weird thing was it wasn't swollen or bruised or anything.
So how that ties in to my foot problem now is that they other night I was putting on the lid to my water bottle.
It's a contigo so it has a bigger heavier lid then most water bottles.
It fell from my hands and headed for the floor.
So I stuck my foot out to break the fall.
In the 1.3 seconds it took to get from my hands to my foot I remember thinking I should just let it hit the ground. But that'll be loud so I'll use my foot to break the fall, there is no harm in that.
Same foot and same place as the casserole dish.
My room mate thinks I bruised my foot bone. I can also hear the grinding of tendons or something when I flex and unflex my toes.
Like I said walking around campus isn't any fun.
Next doing crossfit I did one of the moves wrong and used to much back and not enough legs and pulled a muscle, slipped a disc, threw out my back something along those lines. My left lower back is in constant pain. I got home and laid on a bag of frozen peas for an hour.
Not joking, I almost cried in every class I went to because I was so miserable sitting in the desks. I took a shower last night and noticed that I had two long blue veins running down both sides of my legs. It seriously freaked me out. I thought I might wake up paralyzed.
Anyway I know this has gotten long and I really don't mean to complain so much cause it could be worse, I could really be paralyzed or have no legs or something equally terrible.
So this temporary discomfort just makes me appreciate all that my body can do and encourages me to take better care of it.
My home teachers gave me a blessing and there were just things said in there that reminded me of how mindful the Lord is of me in every circumstance. It went beyond just blessing my back.
I know He knows me and knows what is best for me. I know He answers prayers and I know He has the power to heal anything whether it's a hurt back/foot, a broken heart, or a sorrowful spirit He is there for us and will help us if we ask. I'm so grateful for the tender mercies in my life and for moments like this. Even though it sucks and is painful I learn so much about the Savior and his hand in my life.
I get to the end of the circle and feel like I can take a breath and enjoy the accomplishment.
But then it starts all over again.
I'm almost out of breath and energy....
In order to conserve energy I deactivated my facebook account for awhile.
It was just one of those dumb things that took up way to much of my time.
I couldn't start or finish the day without checking it and if was my go to when I felt like I needed a break...and 30 mins later started studying again.
Next to go is my cell phone.
Okay it's not literally going to go, but I think I'm going to shut it off for mass amounts of time this weekend so that it doesn't distract me.
Maybe some of you think I'm taking my studies a little to seriously and I should lighten up but I honestly feel so stressed when I think of all the homework and test I have due this coming week. By doing dumb things like going on facebook and texting people I probably waste about 2-4 hours everyday. That's valuable time I could take away from study and actually spend with people in person.
How much nicer would that be?
To re cap the past few days in case anyone cares to here what I've been up to (this is really mostly for my mom and adria)
On Friday I went to the Haunted Straw maze.
It was actually pretty freaky. I don't really get scared when people jump out at me I get most afraid when they keep following me after they jump out! It drives me insane to have them just breathing down my neck!
Then on Saturday I went to this beautiful mansion house.
It was located on a river bank, had a huge green yard and was complete with an indoor heated swimming pool. Hello fun.
Jessica and I watched Seven Brides for Seven brothers and no one can convince me that that show isn't AMAZING. I'm a sucker for impromptu singing about love and the mountains.
I love the sobbin' women and the barn dance.
Gideon is the cutest little red head of them all.
Then last night I went country dancing.
Pretty sure it's safe to say I have zero rhythm (I blame my father)
But it really was fun. And we got hot chocolate with frozen custard in it.
That my friends is an amazing combination and I bet it would taste equally awesome with just your average ice cream.
Okay enough blogging. Time to get back to the grind.