Hello Again

I feel like it's been so long since I blogged. I was doing so good at blogging everyday cause of that little challenge and funny things going on in my life. Well surprise! I decided to nix the rest of that challenge. It was just tiring and kind of dumb. I mean it's fun delving into myself every once in awhile but I didn't want to do it anymore.. TO much of a hassle and sometimes to personal.

And it's SIMPLE SUNDAY. So I'm going to post my simple things post. Todays simple picture happened last sunday night. I had a glass jar of peanut butter in the fridge and somehow when madison opened the door it fell off the shelf and broke on the floor. It was pretty thick glass so it didn't shatter and I was able to save my peanut butter in a tupperware container. (although I do have to be careful still. I've found a piece of glass on my bread a time or two.) After it happened madison told me how surprised she was that I wasn't upset. But it was just one of those moments where you have to laugh. What good would come from being upset that the jarbroke? It already happened getting upset wouldn't change anything. So the next best thing to do is laugh.

day-whatever

Today I'm going to combine what's in your bag and this week. I feel like I've already displayed my feelings on this week a bit. I don't know whether I should go back a whole week or just the start of this week. Or maybe I should discuss my hopes for this week. Maybe a combination? Hmm I think I'm going to do a mix. My feelings about this week starting sunday and then my hopes for the end of the week.

This week started out good. I basically butchered the last song I played on sunday in church, but hey it's not my fault NO ONE had heard the song before. Thank goodness it only had one verse. I don't know if I could carry on. On the plus side I met a nice boy at church, I had a nice nap, talked to a nice boy at the dip party, and I played games with my nice FHE brothers. I liked sunday. Despite the song fiasco.

Monday- I hate tests. My FHE brothers are funny. I love pretty little liars and nail polish.

Tuesday- xio wheon zhong or whatever meditation I did is interesting and everyone should experience it once. My face turns red from embarrassment when i share something personal and red when I'm annoyed at kissing couples in front of me. And red when I work out at the gym. A night should always end with ice cream and someone to talk to.

Wednesday- Clean checks already? At least I've got strange addiction and ice cream to look forward to.

Thursday- Sunday is a mystery, but with the way things have been going they are looking to be rather nice. So I hope things stay the same or they could even get a little better.

As for what's in my bag. Well my main bag accessory is my backpack. Super flattering. It carries an assortment of books from time to time. Usually my child development book, and effective living book "i never knew i had a choice" Also my lap top, lotion, chapstick, lunch, gum, pens, pencils and my icard. There you have it.

Today...

Well today was an interesting day to say the least. First I'll start with my effective living class. We are on chapter 4-health and wellness. For 45 minutes today we did some chinese meditation. I wish with all my heart I could remember the silly name of it, but it was in chinese and it doesn't sound anything like how it looked so i forgot. But we had to do some of the most awkward moves ever. And it was all about pushing out the negative energy and bringing in the positive. It was actually kind of fun, but very interesting. Even more interesting then yoga.

Another event from my day. So usually you go to devotional to get spiritually fed. Well I tried really hard today, because the talk was on a really good subject "sharing your talents" and itwas by Elder Rasband. President of the 70 so I was really looking forward to it. Little did I know that the couple we had chosen to sit in front of would kiss and whisper sweet nothings into each others ears the whole time! Oh I was getting so sick. Every time they did I would give madison this horrified and annoyed look, then I'd pretend to punch them, claw them, strangle them and whatever else. I know that sounds a little extreme but really, isn't kissing in public like that all the time a little extreme too? I mean I'm fine with seeing a couple kiss once, maybe twice, but do you need to every 5 minutes? Can't you control your hormones for 45 mins and pay attention to what a leader of the church is saying? I'm sure it's a lot more important then kissing your loved one. Just a thought. I could be wrong...But I'm not.

Perhaps I needed to spend more time meditating so that I could better control my anger.

Not going to lie, I just copied this post from a previous one I did. I didn't want to take the time to re-write something I had already written.

{I believe in Christ.}

{I believe in true love}

{I believe in forever families}

{I believe good can come from bad}

{I believe in prayer}

{I believe a good cry with some ice cream fixes everything..for awhile}

{I believe in freedom}

{I believe in me}

From this moment..

Before I begin. I don't know if I want to drag this daily post out. I might start combining days. Cause some just don't deserve their own blog post, like what I ate that day and whats in my bag? While I'm sure most people are fascinated to find out so many minute details of my life I don't want to bore you or myself for 30 days. So I will be combing todays entry, a moment and day 10. What I wore.

A moment- The feeling of euphoria after hiking chief mountain. I didn't know if I could possibly make it all the way up the mountain. Standing at the bottom and looking up at the half mile long trail of shale that lay ahead of me, I contemplated on whether it was really worth getting to the top. Would the view really be that good, would my life be any different if I didn't go on? But of course, everyone else wanted to climb so we started the grueling task. We'd pick a large rock amongst all the small tiny pebbles and make that our resting spot. It didn't seem like that far away but it seemed that for every step you took on the shale you took 2 steps back words. Once we got to our resting spot we'd sit and talk for awhile and throw rocks down the mountain trying to hit specific targets. Then we'd turn around and face the challenge ahead of us. Once you get to the top of the shale, you still have to scale a wall of rocks and walk around an edge of a cliff. One clumsy step and you are a goner. But let me tell you, when you do reach the top it is worth it because the view is beautiful and you do feel an amazing sense of accomplishment that you would not feel if you had turned around.

Now you can relate this to life. The shale representing trials or obstacles. When you look at them all at once you can't possibly imagine how you are actually going to come out conqueror. The task seems to big at hand, but if you pick one rock and say I can make it that far for now and push yourself to make it there you can. Sometimes you may take a step and fall back 2 but you have to gather your strength and take that step again and not get discouraged. You then reach your goal rock and take a break and look back from where you came and think "that wasn't so bad, I could do that again" So then you turn around and look at what lays ahead and pick another rock and push yourself that far. Until you are at the top and you look back at everything it took to get you there. The things you learned about yourself and perhaps others. You feel deep joy at not having given up. I've heard it said there is a difference between giving up and surrendering. You give up out of anger and despair, but with surrender you bring everything you can until you are forced to surrender. You can't go any farther, at least by yourself, but you haven't given up and will try again later.

That is my moment.

Now for what I wore today.

Well I tried taking a full body shot but it was tricky by myself so i ended up just taking a picture of my face and my shirt, cause really my jeans were just a pair of blue jeans, nothingspecial there. I wore a pair of black sweated boots. Yay. I'm sure you can imagine that just fine. SoI figure my shirt would be the most difficult to envision. So here it is.

The simple things.

Every sunday I think I'm going to try and do a simple things post. Since I love the idea of project 365 but can't manage to take a picture everyday, I'm hoping I can manage to take a picture once a week of something simple. I don't think myself and perhaps any of us really take the time to enjoy the simple things in life amidst all the hullabaloo that goes on. This weeks simple thing was something that made me laugh. Samantha wanted to make cinnamon rolls but it got to late so the wrapped the dough up in plastic wrap and put it in the fridge. 20 mins or so later she went to get something out of the fridge and this is what she found

We laughed for quite awhile. It made my day so much better.

Besties

I could blog about my best friends all day every day. I love my friends and truly believe I've had some of the best in the world!

I have had many best friends throughout my life.

My first best friend was lacey carlson. She lived across the street and our moms were best friends so it was only fitting that we would be. I remember when me lacey and jessica frenchwere in the same kindergarten class my mom would pick them up. I liked lacey so much that one time I was a little irrational and was upset that my mom was going to pick up jessica first. I bawled cause I wanted her to get lacey first.

From there on I had other best friends, usually whoever was in my class. Lacey was always a constant some others were Kelsie Stephan, Kylie Gilchrist, Whitney Bay, Carrie Zemp, Miranada Bevans and Kylee Wolsey.

But as a I got into Jr. High the friends I made in seventh grade would be the friends that lasted throughout the rest of my school years in Cardston. Jennica Dittmann, Karli Low, and Kimber Leavitt.

I love these girls with all my heart. No girls have every made me laugh so hard, be so comfortable with who i am, trust completely, or encouraged me more. They have been so influential in my life. I don't think I'd be at BYU-I if it wasn't for them. I had never planned on going to college. I didn't feel smart enough and I didn't know what I would want to do with further education. But they encouraged me and told me I needed to go. Even though I wasn't half as smart as them they never made me feel like I wasn't.

We had so many nights of sitting around a table and eating a whole bag worth of toast and jam. Then get up in the morning and do it again. We'd lay on Jennica's bed with the room completely dark, with love songs playing on the stereo and sit and talk for hours about boys and only boys.

We were such good friends that we could sit around the table all of us talking at once but not having to repeat anything just said because we could some how magically all hear and understand what one another said and agree with it. Yup these girls completed my highschool years. I've missed them as we've gone onto our own adventures without each other. But its been a great chance to make new friends.

One of my old best friends, that has become one of my best friends out of high school is miranda bevans. This girl is there for my 100%. She'd always come into extra foods and talk to me for hours about Tim, and drew on their missions, and things going on with other people in high school. This last summer we had a lot of fun playing cards together and going to the movies. I always look forward to seeing Miranada when I get home because she is always happy and laughing and makes me feel so good when I'm with her. When we were young Miranada and I would watch Mary-kate and Ashley Olsen shows all day long. And one time we had strawberry ice cream as a midnight snack, for breakfast, lunch, and then dinner. We didn't eat anything else and that night I threw it all up and couldn't eat strawberry ice cream for years without feeling sick.

Okay I'm sure you are getting tired of hearing about my best friends but I just have 2 more to mention so bare with me!

Samantha Anderson- She is my room mate right now. And while she maybe isn't someone I tell all my secrets to I have a blast with her. She is always game for doing anything I want. Like watching movies, painting nails, going to yoga/abs, collaging. Anything. She'd probably be game with sky diving if I asked her to. Also I love watching movies with her because when samantha finds something funny she is not afraid to LAUGH OUT LOUD or she may scream if something scares or bothers her. It makes watching movies so much more enjoyable.

Now I saved the best for last. Madison Beazer. While she is my sister she is one of my bestfriends. I've had so much fun having her as my room mate this semester. As sisters it's natural we get on each others nerves every once in awhile. But she makes me so happy. I love bringing her with me places because I know she thinks I'm funny (for some reason) and will laugh at the stupid things I say or do. She is always there for me to talk to after a date, or a stupid day at school and I'm sure I don't return the favor half as well as she does. But I appreciate her and am so glad we are on this journey together.

Day 6- my day day... I'm thinking that means my day today? I'm sure you all are just dying to know what a day in the life of chanel consists of. Believe me, it's super exciting....I don't even really feel like doing this post. I'm sure no one cares what I did today, or on any other day. If it was actually a cool day maybe I'd want to share more, but really today was lame. Here is what I did.

-woke up

-went grocery shopping

-showered

-studied child development, did effective living assignments, and read for child development

- went to the gym (to check out all the ripped men of BYU-I)

-watched hercules with madison and christian.

- go to bed

Aren't you all jealous of my life?

Day 5- definition of love.

Love is a lot of things. Love is finding that one person you can tell all your secrets to and you know will keep them. Love is being willing to give everything but never having to because the other person would never ask you to give everything. It's loving someone because of their flaws. It's finding someone that you could love without, but don't want to, because life just wouldn't be as fun. Love is exciting and enduring. Love can probably give you the ability to do back flips,and not on a trampoline. Love can be painful but it makes up for the hurt eventually. Love is forgiving and forgetting. Love is Love.

pause

So I'm hitting pause on my day challenge. Who knows later tonight I might do the actually post but for now I have a few things to share.
First off. I love my room mates. They are always good for a some talking, laughing, dancing, and eating food. The other day we went to g's dairy and got their special. A home made grilled cheese sandwich (with cheese they make themselves) and a single scoop of ice cream for $3. That's music to a college students ear

Then 2nd my fabulous mother has ordered like 13 doris day shows all coming to my humble abode. I can't wait to watch all of them. The first one came the other day and it's so fitting for madison and I. It was called the pajama game and madison and I love wearing pajamas's.

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Okay last on the list is something to rant about. Number one thing I get tired of is when people pretend like they know me. Does this happen to anyone else? I can't imagine I'm the only one plagued with this problem. It drives me crazy. A little back up details, bear with me.

I went on a date with a guy last weekend. (name withheld to protect privacy) Nice guy, i first met him in the food court. We shared a table. I wasn't to into talking because I had to finish an assignment before my class in half hour, but we agreed to go on a date. It was a good time so I agreed to go on a second date cause I thought, what the heck it was fun, he's good looking, one more won't hurt.

On wednesday I was in the library, trying to fill out a study guide that I had to have filled out before I could go talk to my professor about the questions. So I was a little stressed, again not having much time. But he came over and I wanted to talk and look at my music and show me some of his. So finally I was like hey sorry I really just gotta get this finished for my class so I can't talk. But then another friend came in so then I started talking to him for awhile. After I finally leave I get a text from him saying he thinks we should reschedule the date cause he's busy. I see thru the facade and ask if I offended him. He calls me that night and the conversation goes something like this. (i'm probably as confused as he is now)

boy: Hey I guess I was offended today. I just got mixed signals from you

me: I'm sorry, I didn't mean to offend you I was just stressed and so I couldn't really talk. I didn't mean to be rude.

Boy: I'm just confused because you talked to other people.

Me: well they are my friends to...

Boy: I don't know I'm just confused and don't understand you.

Me (trying to bring some humor): well I am a girl, what do you expect?... he does not think that line is very funny... So then I say "well in all honesty I would go on another date with you but I'm just still up for dating other people"

boy: Yah i realized that, I think you and I have different goals in life right now. The girl I saw in the library was a lot different from the girl I took on a date and talked to in the food court.

Me: Really, how so? And speak your mind I won't be offended I'm just interested to know how i was different.

Boy: I don't know I'm just confused.

Me: Uhmm well okay then..I guess I'll see you around?

Boy: Yah bye.

So now I'm confused. Not only confused but annoyed. Apparently I missed the part on our date where I told him all my life goals and everything about me, like what I like and dislike, my favorite color, What kind of laundry detergent I use and all that good stuff. I kind of don't think he knew what he was talking about. Since he completely avoided my question about how I was different. All I know is I don't like it was people make assumptions about me and after spending a total of 2 hours with me they can tell if I want the same things as they do. Okay that's my rant. I know that sometimes I make judgments about people. I'm not perfect on this subject ether. . So I know perhaps I'm being childish and dumb. But I can't help but be bothered.

The end.

I shared a bagel...with the garbage

One of my favorite you tube videos is the harvard sailing team boys will be girls. If any of you reading haven't seen it I may suggest watching it. They do a pretty good job of portraying girls. The title of my blog is quoted from them.

This is the link to their video. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gspaoaecNAg

Day 4- what I ate today.

Breakfast- oatmeal and banana with peanut butter

lunch- veggie sandwich

snack- shortbread cookies and peaches with cottage cheese

dinner- grilled cheese and ice cream

snack- frozen yogurt and skittles

Madre and Padre

Well my parents are pretty awesome. I'm sure most people have a bias to their parents I know I certainly do. Although as a kid I sometimes wished I had other peoples parents. Like miranda or kimber whose parents didn't always give them curfews and let them drive before they were 16. Like every teenager I wanted more freedom. But looking back in retrospect I love the way my parents raised me. They couldn't have done a better job. If they wouldn't have given me a curfew who knows what trouble I could've gotten into. My parents have always been there for me. My favorite times now are when I come home for a visit and before I leave my mom says "Chan just sit down and hug me for awhile" so we cuddle and maybe talk for a little while. She'll usually rub my arm or play with my hair while we sit. They are just such good times.

My dad is always good for throwing my philosophies of life at. I usually tell him these while we are playing sports. Thats how I bond with my dad. It might be on the golf course, playing volleyball on the front yard, or hiking a mountain he's always been there to talk to and give me greater understand on my life, especially spiritual aspects.

My parents have been such solid rocks in my life and have taught me so many valuable things. I loved having my mom at home growing up. By her example she gave me the desire to be more domestic. She's also been a great example of service. She's always given to her family selflessly and also to others. She takes time to visit old people or young mothers that might be in need of some time away from their kids.

My dad also is a great example of service. He's held various church callings and has always done his best to assist those in need. I felt like sometimes I hardly saw him cause he was always away helping others.

I love the way my parents have taught me to think about the world. They've given me a jump start on life and I'll be forever grateful.

I think the only people who would really care to read this post is my parents, and maybe my siblings. So I'm going to stop now cause I think I could go a lot deeper.

you were my first love..

DAY 2- FIRST LOVE

Welp plain and simple my first love was Tim Zemp starting at the tender age of 12 and continued off and on for the next few years. There were a lot of fun times and a lot of memories. Some good and some bad. And I wouldn't do anything differently.

On a side note. Word to the wise. Don't go sledding twice in one day. It's way to much time out in the freezing cold. If you do, you may wake up in the morning with a sore throat, cough, chills, aching body, and a headache. I'm so glad today's a holiday and I don't have to go to school cause I lose my breath walking and am in pain when I move. It's no fun. Even though I got 11 hours of sleep last night I think i might just go back to bed...

What to say about me.

Day 1- Words or pictures that describe me. I love pictures so sorry there is so many. But I think they help you understand me.

{FUN}*{ADVENTUROUS}*{LOVING}*{MUSICAL}*{HAPPY}*{INTELLIGENT}*{DAUGHTER OF GOD}*{FUNNY}*{TRAVELLER}*{CONFIDENT}*{SARCASTIC}*{HOPEFUL ROMANTIC}*{THANKFUL}*{DETERMINED}*{CREATIVE}

Room mate

This is my new room mate kate. She's is hilarious and I really like her. She's a nursing student so sleep is hard to come by sometimes.

I couldn't resist.

So sometimes I love blogging, but don't have much to blog about. Then someone else find these great question/topics to do every day for a month or so and I'm hooked. I hope people don't get tired of reading these. It's a great way to get to know me a little bit and it's fun to do. I think I'll start tomorrow though, or later tonight. I've got some things to get done around my place.

(stolen directly from janeen's blog.)

Day 01 – Introduce yourself with pictures and words

Day 02 – Your first love


Day 03 – Your parents


Day 04 – What you ate today 


Day 05 – Your definition of love


Day 06 – Your day Day

07 – Your best friend

Day 08 – A moment


Day 09 – Your beliefs

Day 10 – What you wore today 


Day 11 – Your siblings


Day 12 – What’s in your bag


Day 13 – This week

Day 14 – What you wore today

Day 15 – Your dreams

Day 16 – Your first kiss

Day 17 – Your favorite memory


Day 18 – Your favorite birthday

Day 19 – Something you regret


Day 20 – This month


Day 21 – Another moment

Day 22 – Something that upsets you

Day 23 – Something that makes you feel better


Day 24 – Something that makes you cry

Day 25 – A first

Day 26 – Your fears

Day 27 – Your favorite place

Day 28 – Something that you miss


Day 29 – Your aspirations

Day 30 – One last moment

If I could only see

What difference do I make in someone's life? I often think about this, because most of the time I feel like I don't do anything, that when someone mets or sees me their life goes unchanged and I don't make any sort of a difference. But then I stop and think about the people that come into my life briefly and the feelings I have every time I get a chance to see them. The past few days since school hasstarted I've run into a few people I've known in past semesters but hadn't seen ina year or so, or maybe just hadn't seen or talked to them as much as I would've liked to in the last while. Every time I see these people though it's the whole "my insides get all warm and fuzzy and my face instantly lights up" Number one reason this happens is usually because they recognize me and seem happy to see me again. After we share a few words I think about them for the rest of the night and how much it meant to me that they took a few minutes out of their day to give me a hug and catch up on my life. They don't know that the smile I wear the rest of the day largely results because of seeing them. Or the happiness and the way Iview the world that day is because of something they said. Words and expressions are so powerful and can really shape a person. So in turn, this gets me thinking about what peoples thoughts and feelings are after we depart. Are they the same as mine? Do they feel worse or just the same after seeing me. I would hope so much that they feel just a little bit better and their day is just a little bit brighter. Also there are those people who we've just met. What impression do I leave on them? Sometimes I feel like I'm a little to much of a pessimist or I have strong opinions or judgements that might scare people. Nothing makes me happier then when down the road I run into or receive an email or text from that person I met days, months, or years ago and they say something sweet. Like

*You made me want to try harder in class and be better because that's what you did.

*Your always happy when I see you, so it makes me want to be happier.

* The first time I met you I could tell you were confident and knew what you wanted in life.

* You were such a good example to me.

* I love that you aren't afraid to speak your mind and that you have opinions. I never had to wonder what you were really thinking.

* You're a mormon? That's why you are so nice.

All of this stuff is done on an unconscious level and I never think twice about it. But what I've come to realize is, is that it's the small stuff that really does matter. It's the little things we do, that come naturally to us, that change and effect people's lives. "By small and simple things shall great things be brought pass" I know that sometimes I'm going to forget but I'm going to try and do the small things that might change a persons day. A smile, a hug, or a hello how are you doing? (and then actually taking the time to stop and see how they are really doing.) are just a few of the small things. I'm going to end with a quote and a few words about it.

In 5 years I'm probably not going to remember everything a person has said to me or every nice thing they ever did for me, but I will be able to remember the way they made me feel. I hope when they think about me they feel all warm and fuzzy and a smile crosses their face.

no use for a name maybe

I can't really think of anything to title this blog. It's just a few random pictures from being at home and coming down to school. I really wish i was more of a picture taker. A part of me really would like to do project 365 but I think I would find it more of a nuisance then something actually enjoyable. But then I'd always have a picture to go with my blog and would probably find more simple things to take pictures of and just enjoy those moments. oh well.

Twinners (look at mitch in the background)

All cute and ready to bowl

I love a genuine happy picture. Such as this

Snow bank along the side of the road on the way to idaho

Yes I am wearing 2 pairs of glasses at the same time.

Head Nod Hello

I'm sure many people can identify with this form of hello. It's usually done by guys to other guys. This is the problem I have. Is when I'm walking and there is a guy in front of me who looks like he is looking right at me, he then gets a little smile on his face and gives the little head nod. Naturally I feel flattered and also start thinking do I know him? I review the last few classes I have and the guys in my ward and just as I'm realizing no I don't know him. I hear him say "sup mike" and I realize that he is looking and smiling at the guy directly behind me. Then I feel lame because I've got this stupid bewildered smile on my face and have been staring into their eyes trying to figure out if I know them. I just hope guys are as oblivious as they sometimes are and don't realize that my stupid smile was geared towards them.

que sera sera

I kind of love this saying. In case you few readers that take the time to actually read my blog don't know what that means I'll state it in english, "whatever will be will be" It's a name of a song. It also goes onto say in the song "the future's not ours to see" Perhaps one can now understand why a person might love those words. I've found that life sometimes just doesn't go the way I want (this has been a recurring theme in my blog posts) but it's pretty pertinent to my life.

For example: my classes. I got a few that I've wanted but for the most part my schedule is just not working out the way I would like and it makes me a little frustrated. If I can't find 14 credits worth of classes to take I can't get my scholarship. it's not really okay, but que sera sera.

There are many other que sera sera aspects in my life. But there isn't anything I can do about it. The future's not mine to see. I just have to be patient and let things play out the way they are suppose to. Perhaps the Lord doesn't want me to take these certain classes because if I did I wouldn't met certain other people in different classes. Who knows. It's just the way it is and I might as well get used to it.

On a little side note. My new favorite old hollywood starlet is doris day. She just happens to be the one who sings que sera sera. I watched about 6-7 doris day films over the holidays. I just love her shows. My favorites are move over darling, calamity jane, bring me no flowers, and pillow talk. I'd recommend watching them. She is hilarious. Words are not needed to express

how she feels, her face says it all. She is also a very strong womanly character. Guys don't generally walk all over her in the films. She definitely gets even. Isn't she lovely?